Thursday, July 13, 2017

My Biggest Flaw

You know when you're in an interview and they ask you "What would you say is your biggest weakness?" and you have some bullshit answer already planned like, "I would biggest that I'm too organized." I mean come on, pretty much everyone answers that question with a carefully worded compliment to themselves. No one is like, "My biggest weakness.....would have to be........meth. Yep. Definitely meth. Can't get enough of it. I just fucking love meth!" Or "I literally do like two hours of work and then spend the rest of my day on Facebook." Or "I'm habitually late, I call in sick a lot and my house looks like a bunch of raccoons have been squatting there for the last three years." No, it's always something good. So that's what I'm about to do here. I'm going to pretend that my nail biting, bad temper, tend to over react and all the other 100 things I do don't exist and tell you about what I feel is my biggest flaw.

I have a tendency, for the most part, to try to see the good in people. Even after I've been taken advantage of, been treated poorly, yada yada yada. I feel that  although people are responsible for their own actions, it's still important to realize that the reason they do the things they do can be traced back to something that happened to them in the past which in turn altered how they react to things. And people do change, although it sometimes takes a lot of work on their part, people can and do change if they really want to. Or if something is important enough to them.

I'll be the first to admit this is a very stupid way of thinking. You're putting yourself directly in the cross hairs for disappointment, hurt, guilt, a whole bunch of shitty emotions that you've probably already felt before. So why do it? I guess because as much as I feel I have fucked up in my life, people should still be given a chance at redemption.

As human beings, the potential each one of us holds is outstanding. We all have the ability to do great things with our lives but sometimes you need an extra push. It seems as though a lot of the time, people just don't get the support they need. Maybe if they had someone rooting for them it would change their thinking and plant that idea of "Hey. Maybe I can do this."

In closing, be supportive. Encourage those in your life to succeed. Do what you can to help them heal and become better people. But don't get carried away. My niece is probably mentally scared for life thanks to me insisting I train her to be an Olympic gymnast. I'm beginning to think that screaming at her in Ukrainian from ages 4 to 5 and giving her a nightly workout routine to get them gainz may have been slightly unreasonable. Or she's just a quitter and quitters never win. Just saying.